Saturday, February 25, 2006
so apart from him..tis is where i bitch..one of d other places...im feeling soo sucky rite now..omg! Im feeling exactly hw i felt 6 months ago...yesh!and its super ultra freaking sucks!
y isnt there jz one day when im lik soo free?i seriously dunoe hw i can explain..i mean u ppl will nvr understand..u dun haf to go thru tis shit every day u see...ur either doted upon or wadeve crap lah..feed wif a silver spoon...
u noe..ppl are nvr easily satisfied..ok lah..dats hw human beings work...hey even im lik dat at times..bt for me,i take it as a challenge for me to move ahead and outshine myself from d rest...i've proven it and im freaking hapie bout it..altho i was quite disappointed in d beginning..bt nw guess im ok..i can live wif it..i can nvr excel in science..haha..
so the main thing now is parents...hmm...gosh!shuld i be direct or jz lay off abit..i mean i dun wanna sound RUDE u noe...ok i shuldnt say..
*zips my mouth...i cant wait for sch to start but on the other hand,once it starts,i will haf to deal wif more issues..my heart is reali aching soo badly...i tink i nid a psychiatrist immediately...yup yup..my mind n heart too heavy alr...pls gif me a pill to calm me down or stg...
ppl shuld understand me more u noe...stop forcing me to do things im nt ready to or i dun wan..im old enuf n i haf my own views n thinking...i can tell btwn right n wrong...i aint no small kid...pls respect my decisions...dats all im asking for...im nvr taken seriously...well lik i've said im jz a small kid..wad do i noe..NOTHING!how can i noe anything if u dun tell me?????always keeping frm me...good..dats d way...kip up d excellent werk ya...
whoa..seems lik i haf lots of issues here..haha..yeah...dats my life..nvr once spared frm anything...im one f%^k#d up gerl!!!!!!!!!!!sorie dear..im crude..bt no better word can describe hw i feel..dats nt even near...ok lah...reality awaits me...
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ouh crap..suck up to my life
{Adun Lurves} {8:55 PM}
Friday, February 24, 2006
1. Song playing at the moment? - Pudar2. One reason for living? - God...3. Do you think you are okay? - hmm..not okay at all...4. Ever donated blood? - haha..nope..i'll freak out..5. Last message from? - him6. Last message sent? - him7. Last call from? - hmm...cant remember...haha..8. Last place went? hmm..went northpoint ytd wif nu ren...9. Last food you eat? - rice...10. Last person whom you chat with in msn? -hmm...its always him11. Accessories you usually wear? - my hoop earrings..love them altho i haf others! necklace..hand and ankle bracelet...watch...dats it i guess...12. Movie you want to watch? - rumor has it!must u still ask?!13. How many piercings? - hmm..nw 2...14. Have you ever performed on stage before? -haha..my fav thing to do..altho i will freak out..bt yeah i love d stage..15. Stuck by lightning before? -wuld i still be here?16. Ever wish you could turn back time? - nopez..its all about d present..work on it!17. What would you do if your bf/gf betray you? - haha..nah..he wunt..for sure!18. One song that's stuck in your head now? - pudar19. What will you be doing tomorrow? - hmm..wad else..stay at hm lah..noone goes out wif me..im a loner! I hate socializing20. Ever thought of robbing a bank? - for wad?i wun ever resort to dat lah..21. One thing you totally regret doing? - hmm..i dunoe actuali..everything seems fine..22. Do people like you? - hw wuld i noe..do u lik me?23. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment? - you shuld noe hu..him n nu rens24. The colour of your mobile phone? - hmm..grey25. What do you wish to happen now? - time culd go faster..so dat i can go sch!26. Would you marry your current bf/gf? - hmmmmmmmmm........27. Do you believe in reincarnation? - noope28. If you find out your best friend is gay/lesbian,what would you do? - err..groool!29. Do you consider yourself a good listener? - yup yup...i rather listen...30. Would you rather be short or tall? - hmm..im both...alhamdulillah..31. Would you rather be happy or wealthy? - i rather b happie...32. Would you consider your relationship withyour parents bad, okay or good?- muz i comment?33. Do you like to sleep?- hmm..if im slpy lah...34. Are you shy to ask someone out?- haha...depends on hu lah...bt yesh for ppl i dunoe,im very shy!35. Do you like to talk on the phone?- hmm..nt dat much lah..abit lazy..36. Would you rather go on a walk or watch tv? - hmm..watch tv while lying down...told you im a lazy gerl...37. What would be the first thing you'd change about yourself?- stubborn!38. What's the thing you wanted badly now?- sch!39. If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do? - im invisible every single day40. What brand you like most? - no idea...41. If you were in a theatre and someone was crying, would you laugh? - hmm..dat someone wuld b me lah...yeah i do cry in theatres...42. Have you ever thought that you were going to die? - nono..bt one day i will...43. What's the hardest thing about growing up? - everything44. What little unknown talents do you possess? - haha..i dunoe..seriously45. Would you eat a bowl of live earthworms for $$$? - no..im nt dat desperate u noe...46. If this saturday. you could do ANYTHING you wanted, what would you do? - hmm..nt stay at home?47. What's the worst words you know?- haha...48. If you could do anything to the person you hated most what would it ? - pretend they dun exist...den life wuld b perfect!49. What's your worst fear? - hahaha...u noe i noe lah eh...50. Have you ever felt you were in love? - always!all d time...51. Current desktop picture? - i dun care...
{Adun Lurves} {7:52 PM}
Monday, February 20, 2006
hmm...juz read nu ren's blog...so yeah..she went clarke quey..haha...indians on d hse ya?where did u go?punjab music?omg!were u lost or wad?bt yeah...dats nice to groove in rite?hahaha...are u still mixing ur hard liquor wif soft drinks or haf u learned to take it as it is?
im freeeaking bored tis wk...yah..bt last wk guess i did go out a couple of times...mostly spent wif linda lah...even on vdae!!yah... yup..dats d pic..we were even wearing same tee!both from giordano..haha..hers wif a collar lah...i simply cant wait for sch posting...nt dat i dunoe where i will b posted to..haha..yah lame i noe...bt its soo exciting..new phase..i lik!bt thinking agn...im scared...im always tinking of alot 'wad if?'...my life is nt dat simple u see...its much more complicated...haiz...i shant say wad though..if u noe den u noe..if nt den well ur nt to noe.. 
ahh...bliss...hehe..13.02.06...met dear abit..i tink i jz accompanied linda to SP..yup yup..dear was done wif sch so yeah!went cck to eat eat n eat....den hm time..brief yet fun!
{Adun Lurves} {2:55 PM}
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
when was d last time dat i actuali blogged?1500 BC?
hmm...life's much much better nw...lik seriously...bt sum thngs will nvr change...dats wad i haf to live wif...bt wad d heck...
no idea wad to blog actuali...my mind is totally blank...hmm..
{Adun Lurves} {10:39 AM}
