I iwsh to give every guy a big SMACK on the head...chivalry is dead now ah..i agree..and yesh so u claim so are gentle gerls...its a give and take thing man...

was soo pissed at soo many things today ah..dun ask...a note to remember, guys, if ur gf were to fall at a veery awkward position, dun just bloody stand there and laugh or walk away like nothing happen ah..cannt help her up izit?and ask nicely shes ok nt....wah...despice guys hu do dat noe...do stg stupid den jz ignore den the gerl haf to settle themself...

den alot of couples walk pass the chocs and say soo nice pretty etc etc...u noe lah when gerls see chocz...but the guy..u wan den buy ah...BUT BUT BUT their body movement is dragging the gerl away....cheapo!!cannot buy for her izit?dun haf initiative to buy ah?blood was sooo boiling if i noe dat guy, sure kena one smack alr ah....gentlemanly my foot!arrrrrgh!

and yesh...i will watch my movies and hikmahs after tis to cheer myself up...back is hurting alot agn ah..yah..thnx to the weight....i wanna get a license and buy a car ah...for my use!!im soooo fed up of travelling alone carrying all dat weight...so i shall survive myself and drive myself..problem soon to be solved...

i feel soo independent now oso...everything im doing alone...sch home werk..tired yesh..disappointed yesh..but like ive said ive given up hope..so theres oni me to count and depend on....i reap wad i sow..

i jz nid a another backbone to support me...not to question not to drag me down....but to jz support me and cont pushing me forward..jz be there..i mean realli there..nt sum stupid words i can hear on the radio...

forget it...i give up!



how irritating...

finally I got to watch stg dat i wanna watch...wild hogs..and im glad it was a good choice...funny cute story...den off to werk...im jz back and werking agn tml..cool...

took a very very long bath jz nw...feels sooo nice...its like washing away everything...i mean troubles all dat lah...dun tink dirty...and i wore pajamas after a loooong time and used all the nice smelling lotions and wadeve crap....yesh yesh..pampering urself when down is nice...dats my alternative besides pooh...no one to go after me and bother oso...serve me rite..itchy sumore ah wan go werk..nw no time for anything...

im sooo sick of hoping and hoping...i give up...truly do...like shit lah...ok fine...this post is making no sense...ntg is rite nw..

forgotten, forgotten, unappreciated, empty, meaningless, abandoned, shitty, crappy, bullshit...
Let be left alone, on the shelf
Thrown away when finished
Just for the sake of it

the need to impress and be special no longer exist.
surprises lessen as the numbers increase.
promises to make everyday a special one slowly decreases
activities no longer feel good but rather like a routine

and a note to all the other guys...how do u wan me to make things soo ever crystal clear?shuld i actuali spell out stop bothering?my frens may be flirting but im nt them hell...







wad cn i say of 1st days?there were LOTS more people compared to last year...i totally avoided the mrt in the morning...went out earlier and took the bus instead...dat too was packed...met meiyi at the bus stop..ouh things are all sooooo different....sch a havoc nw...canteens with all the people...im lucky when i turn around i haf other frens...

arrrrrrrggggh!!shit lah...class was ok i guess...bt the rest i hate it...the walk back frm sch..its like reali alot of ppl lah..and i hate crowds....i prefer rp being quiet..ouh forget it...im getting all mixed up..and i can oni look forward to wad nw??lessons and new modules i tink..

gotta say i haf to start using my mind more and think of everything..i mite jz crack sumday...
cool..

get well sn..love u!



hie..im tired shagged but having fun i guess...

werk is tearing both my legs and voice apart..haha...makes sense nt?

got my triumph pay today...wooo!!haha...bt already spent most of it...he accompanied me today...den we went amk hub..since im gonna werk..so we jz spent time there..watched sunshine...sad lah..bt dun understand abit..ouh..DUN WATCH 'NUMBER 23'...its a waste of time, effort and money seriously....stupid idiotic show...

so den we went to eat..dun ask how many times we went to fill our tummy..haha...bought one plate of nasi padang as starters....after movie he felt a little hungry so we went to banquet and poop theres popiah and roti prata....haha...den den den...we decided to ramen ten where we ordered one teriyaki beef don,teriyaki chicken handroll and salmon sushi...

hahahaha..so tell me how cn i ever lose weight when he's always stuffing me wif food?and kips saying im nt fat...ouh i forgot...i ate another prata hotdog after dat..all by myself..wahahaha...

altho i am tired, i had lots of fun thnx to him!thnx for making my day and hey love u to the core!
reali!lots of love love love...ehhh noo...my best fren... :DD



yesh apparently still awake...werking agn tml...everiday in fact...

went out wif him after werk today..its nice..to slot in time to see him..been bz lately and haven reali toked to him much...and yeah today..hmmmm...din feel enuf...wasnt satisfied...din do much..din tok much..wasnt much quality time of toking i guess...haizzz...hate it bt thers ntg i can do...

im tired,home is veri awful...and wif him,its the oni time i get to reali relax and clear my mind...no worries bout anithing else...

bt today..i guess its juz me lah..its jz nt enuf!!hw do i put it to words?gues my mind alr haf alot to handle..den plus all the pp things...more things i haf to tink bout..ur making my head spin more..and i jz dun need dat rite nw...

im scared..its like nowhere to go..im alr feeling lost even when sch's nt even started...ur no longer there...wad u wan me do?do everything alone????u noe i cant do dat...ur just asking me to go the website and search for proposals template...nt much help u see...like wad??i dunoe head or tail bout it...NOTHING!!and so at last desperate decision..i noe its hard to accept..i noe i noe..dun make it sound like i dun care hw u feel...i haf to tink of u, of myself...and it gets soo frustrated at times..shit!here i start tearing agn..forget it..

ought to get some slp...my feet is killing me..have yet to get my massages..have yet to get anything..



work today was nt bad lah...seeing dat every time i get to see the chocs and muffins...wahahaha...voila!nice perfect job for me...seeing food and its quite easy..though we have to 'shout' and promote lah..haha...colleague said i was too soft and must be more outspoken..din manage to learn opening today..yeah was late...when i apologised the reason seemed like an excuse but its the truth lah...

I WAS STUCK IN THE LIFT!

hahaha..no joking aight...tot i was gonna suffocate in there...sooo hot!people hu overslept shuldnt lie...its bcoz of ppl like me hu tells the truth bt gets laughed at...ouh hu cares...so in the end mama and a small boy helped to call the person...damsel in distress like he said...haha...

haf to say my day today was abit happening..nt counting yesterday...been bz!

met him twice ytd...went bugis to get my fat cheque wif linda..yeayness!!!den she bought her clothes...he came down yishun dunoe for wad...den i went home tinking my day will cum to an end...he went to find his boyfriend...their relationship longer noe..dunoe hw many years alr..haha..

so den i got a phone call wanting me to be at amk..just a short trip there..was back by arnd 9...den happen to cross the road and he called yade yade yade...there he was waving his arms across the street...hahaha...funny guy!

so we walked to the eeeeend of the pasar malam and head home...short yesh i noe..bt its nice seeing him..at least i haf someone sane to tok to...

werking agn tml...wee!more chocs to come..wahahah..

okok..love u dear!







was checking thru my hp gallery deleting some old unwanted junks...and came across these pics i took way way early in the morning thnx to boredom...haha..u see theres ntg to do and hes nt awake yet..one of the rainy days u jz wanna laze in...to walk to the lappie table seems like miles away....so at the last resort,my handphone became my victim..muahahaha...



haha...man i look atrocious early in the mrng..but neverthless,the hair rox..haha..looks like a lion...i wan loong loong hair back den all the curls will be like b4...now its all over the place and its hard taming it i tell u..so i end up tying up my hair...wahaha...tink i wun make the mistake of cutting my hair short agn..let me show u the sec4 pic when the hair was marvelous!!












see wad i mean?dats a lot of pics!haha..and dang i was waaay thinner..haha...i mz blame the poly food and me being lazy after sec sch..

i tink everione like themselves now better den b4..haha..bt im like opposite gitu kn..nvm nvm..i shall strive to be like before agn..dat slimmer bod dat longer hair dat thinner face....but hey i still love myself now!!

okok..love u lots dear!!now dun tell me i shuld be hapie the way i am now...coz i am..its just dat it wunt hurt if i wanna change for the better me rite... :P
love u lots lah!dun force me eat alr k...muahaha... :D



i've been having funny dreams lately..hahaha...in the dream it feels nice though but when im awake, i tend to laugh to myself thinking bout it...hahah...stupid yesh i noe..

i soo badly wanna catch movies and read books! its been a very very long time since i last had a nice book wif me...ouh hw sad...dear lah...he dun fancy reading dat much..haha..bicara,mustika and variasi nt counted as reading ok..bluek! so yesh...soon i will rush down to the lib and borrow all i wan..haha..bt i haf to say yishun lib is pathetic..its soo small...

and ouh..i wanna watch movies hell lots!like a marathon or stg u noe...and i feel like wild wild wetting oso...haiz..theres soo many things i wanna do and hols cuming to an end sn...which is good i tink..starting to miss sch alr...i mean opps studying..oni dat frm nw on stg will be missing in sch..HIM...gotta get used to it i gues..bt dun tink i will....hu will comfort me when im down? theres ntg to look forward to every mrng,breaks and after sch...and ouh i will no longer see him standing near the apek shop alr...things will ouh be soo different..and i hate it...ish! forget it no use toking bout it...

good day to everyone...
smile ur widest..
laugh ur loudest...
and be a jester!

makes no sense at all but wad the heck... :D

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